I started about a year and a half ago taking courses through sourcetantra.com (Charles & Caroline Muir). I've gone to their first level of Teacher training and will most likely attend Level II this June in Maui.Because love making is not taught as an art form in the West (maybe nowhere on the planet right now... used to be in ancient cultures), we just stumble through the best we know how. We masturbate in the dark when we first awaken to our sexual energies; then we find partners to masturbate with and on. I think most of us block off being in the moment or being present when we're with a lover, paid or not. Tantra is the most amazing process if one will stick with it.
Just tonight I wrote the writer who will be quoting me in a Tantra article that'll be published in Hustler this Nov (coming out in Oct). I tried to put in words what Tantra has been like for me. The closest I can come to describing it is finally being awakened. My daka (male version of a sexual awakener and healer) lover (whom I've been with for the past 4 nights now, but last night was the last night for awhile... boo hoo!) brings me to "present" time. I don't think many of us are used to spending time "being in the moment." It's so profound that it changes dimensions of time and space. I'm able to see the divinity, instead of only the humanity, in the other... and yet for the first time, I'm fully in my body (not my mind). It's such a humbling experience that it always brings me to tears. Tears of being overwhelmed, tears of happiness that God/dess found me again.. in the Room of Love, in Eternity... right now. I don't quite know how to describe it... I can only say that I first "got it" a year ago in Feb and I've been experiencing it off and on since then.
It reminds me of a really beautiful song that Sarah Brightman sings on her "Eden" album. She's lamenting losing her love and sings: "'Love will last forever' were the last words you said... to me." I always tear up at that. Because, for me, it's not about one person singing that to you or you to them. It's like being lost for so long... lost in a world of being alone... really alone, and then suddenly you awaken, and God/dess is holding you in his/her arms, and is rocking you and singing right in your face - that Love will last forever. And you're it: you're the Love, the Lover and the Beloved. You're the One making Love to yourself through the mirror that is holding you: which is absolutely divine. It's that breathtaking. 
xox Faye Desiree
www.fayedesiree.com
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) The main daka I play with is world renown... he loves me as a dakini, so I'm not charged... It's like being loved by (this is going to sound outrageous, but what the hell!) Buddha. It's very humbling...
Faye